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Name: Stephanie
Birthday: 12/4/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: Church, friends, swimming, goofing off, rockclimbing, guitar, MUSIC
Expertise: HA HA HA HA.......that was pretty silly....well, i'm good at getting hurt! :)
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
4/10/2005
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| CURRENT MOOD: Expectant
So...yeah...life as usual...very unusual.
Last
wednesday, my dad showed up out of nowhere. (hence the reason i wasn't
at church) He's still as crazy and obnoxious as ever. It's hard for me
to let go of everything that he's done to this family and is still
doing. He's still stuck on himself and thinks that the government
created welfare just for him....*sigh* but i'm working on my additude.
We went to lafayette and ran errands with Ben and Clint. Having someone
besides a family member helped a lot, except when dad kept calling him
Clyde instead of Clint. lol
Speaking
of "Clyde" things are going very well. He's hungry for more and more of
God and its really exciting to me. He's learning to be honest in his
best interest, and to reach out. I'm really psyched about it really.
Every time he asks a question, or we have a conversation about God, it
helps me a little too. Usually i give myself the best advice when i
give it. (Don't we all?) So we talked about it a lot, and prayed about
it and we decided to get back together on a very strict probationary
basis. We're going to give it a month and see where we're at, what God
says about it, and all that jazz. It's going really well. :) I still
love him, but it's different now. everything's changed but not like
everything changed before. there's a deeper force that ties us together
and that's fellowship in Christ. so please, be in prayer for us
that God will show us his will and what the next step is (whether
together or apart)
anywho, i
love all of you. you mean so much to me, you have no idea. i'm really
glad to be back, and be welcome. thank you. :) *muah*
Steph
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| so this
stinks....we didn't get to pick my car up till 6, and then i had to get
gas. in delphi, i saw that it was 2.88, so i stopped to get some more
since i had a quarter tank and i don't know what kind of mileage this
car gets....and i realized i forgot to put my gas cap on. i called mom
and she said she didn't want me driving all the way to logansport like
that....pooey. however, i got a sweet new gas cap back in lafayette
that you have to unlock. :) nifty. i didn't think clint really wanted
to go to church that bad, but he was pretty disappointed when it was
seven and we were in lafayette. sad, but cool. i'll be there sunday.
(pray against the obstacles!!!! i.e. no hospital visits and no stupid
mistakes!)
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| why did nobody tell me this (^^^^^) bible is so amazing?!
tonight is my first youth service in a long time (God willing!) and i'm really excited. i'm also a little scared because clint is coming with me. things are alright there. i really believe that God is just going to do a new thing in him and set him on fire. he's grown a lot and realized a lot in the past few days, and it makes me smile. so while there are people who are bitter with me or mad at me for breaking up with him, he's not one of them, so it's a little easier. he has so many questions about how to live the christian walk and where to go and what to do...God is good. I just pray that he keeps growing and keeps pushing and keeps searching, because i know he's going to find it in the same awesome way that a lot of us have, and it's gonna knock him off of his feet. (just to mention, because it's wierd...today would have been our six month anniversary...funny huh?)
i'm hopefully coming to church in my new car tonight!!!! yay! it's such a piece of trash...seriously. it's a 93 ford taurus. i think it runs alright, and i trust the dealership i bought it from....but it looks like a piece of green scrap metal. sortof. around the right front wheel, the metal is all banged up and the door is dented, the windows in the back don't work at all, so it got all wet every time it rained, the brakes pretty low, and there's no ac. so i'm getting the windows put up permanently in the back, and the brakes fixed, and an oil change....then i should be good to pick it up today. (YAY!!!) now for a job....hopefully at carpenter's son, family christian book store, the ymca, or working daycare at the international sports center. (it's a gym) so yeah.:)
well, i'll see you all tonight....if you read this before youth, please try to make clint feel welcome. this really is out of his comfort zone, and he's a little shy at first, but he'll warm up to you if you give him the chance. :) thanks so much. also pray that God will rock his socks x infinity!!!! i love you guys.
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| wow.
church camp was amazing. God totally moved and kicked me in the pants. we chatted and got some stuff sorted out in my life that really wasn't the way it was supposed to be. and i came home broken...
then, saturday, clint and i broke up. that was horrible, because i really do love him. like 1corinthians 13 love, but he's not the man i need right now. i believe he's on that path, but who knows what Gods got in store for either of us. i just pray that he keeps seeking, and that God just rocks his socks x a billion!
so, saturday night/sunday morning i spent in the hospital trauma center. (i wasn't really trauma, but they were busy) the doctors said i had a viral infection in my intestines. (which is wierd, because that's not where it hurt the most...) mom said that 'viral infection' is doctoreese for "i have no idea what is wrong with you, and i'm not going to take the time to figure it out" so they gave me vicodin for the pain (which i haven't taken) and sent me home. so here i am. :)
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| So, wow, i hadn't realized how long it's been since i've posted on here. long time, i guess.
The pro-life music festival is this weekend. I'm excited, but also worried, because so far, it's me and my brother. I reserved camping a long time ago for 15 people, but now i'm not sure if i can find 5. *sigh* so if any of you want to go, PLEASE, call me.
I got a new dog. She's half black lab, half golden retriever. (but she's all black) i named her Rythm. (yes, like rythm and rhyme) i think it's cool. :)
so yeah, once again, i'm going to say this, because it seems some people just don't get it...
it really REALLY hurts me to know that just because i haven't been at church some people think that i've turned my back on God or that people think less of me. none of you treat me the same as you did. you act like your part of some exclusive club that i haven't paid dues to in a while. i miss being around you, i miss being at church all the time. i miss getting on my face in worship. once you've had a good taste of God, you are addicted. so i'd like to know....what more do you want from me. some big long explaination? an apology? sorry, you're not going to get it. i've never been out to please any of you, and i'm not going to start now. hopefully, i'll be back soon. i'm working on it. so if you'd kindly stop looking down your noses at the "poor lost sinner" i'd greatly appreciate it. :) i love you guys, and i know you don't purposely act like that, but you do. | | |
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